So today, June 9, 2014 I’ve come to realize a few things after 36 years on this planet…
I’m limited to my obsessions and compulsiveness. The things that used to have butterflies in my stomach and stress sweat pouring down my neck is little to me today. The knots in my stomach of entering the presale code, making it to 10 am presale time on 5 devices at once, the getting ‘the best seats I can get’ has all come to this… I don’t have to rush anymore, I’m not worried about being in the front row anymore, I’m not worried about making the 10 am presale time.
What once was so fucking important to me 5 days ago, so not so much today or right now. Alanis’ Big Sur video has been out for a few days now, and I only saw it today… And I’m ok with that. Ask me 5 years ago or even 1 year ago, I would have pushed you out of my way to the closes internet connection device I can get to just to watch the video, and yet today, right now, right here in my apartment in Palm Beach Gardens (Gardens East) I am ok with it all and letting go of that piece of me…
Maybe for now? I might be tired or possibly really growing away from that part of me.